Monday, September 27, 2010

Wasted Days

I’ve been contemplating my life as of late. Wasted days and wasted nights. That’s how I feel and I wonder, why did I do that? Why did I waste all of the opportunities God has given me?

One of the saddest times of my life was when my husband started working the night shift. At the time, he worked as an Avionic Technician at Ft. Rucker. Also around the same time, one of my sons  married and my other son left for college. I was so lonely! (Words of songs keep popping into my mind, but I’ll refrain from singing them.) Loneliness is something we can all relate to.

But what I am thinking about now—now that my life is constantly filled with interruptions—is why didn’t I take that time to write? Why did I fritter it away watching TV shows or playing video games? Perhaps I was too depressed to write at the time.

Now, I want to write, yet I’m having difficulty finding the time.

It’s a cliché, but it’s a cliché because it is true. One morning you awake to find you are old(er), and those dreams you had have passed you by. I’m by no means too old to write. But I know I will not have the time to write all of the books I want to.

Enough with the pity party! I can write the book now that God wants me to. Get thee behind me, Satan!

(Okay—just as I was getting ready to post this, my cat threw up and my mother came down to ask me to cook something for lunch, although she knows I’m trying to work. Anyone know a secluded place I can escape to for awhile? By the way, I will cook my mother’s lunch. I would just like to have more than fifteen minutes of uninterrupted time! But God knows that and he will give me what I need.)

8 comments:

  1. Add "is" to the third sentence.

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  2. So grateful to have met you and your husband at the Conference. I know how life interrupts. Who says God doesn't have a sense of humor?

    Grab your laptop and find a quiet closet. Like playing CLUE - Miss Scarlet, in the pantry, with a laptop. :-)

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  3. Thank you, thank you, thank you, Anonymous! Why can we read stuff over and over and not see a simple mistake? Corrected now.

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  4. Great meeting you, your wife and daughter, Chris! Okay, I'll try to find the closet and hide. Some in my family like playing hide-and-seek so I'm not sure if it will work. :)

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  5. Also, interruptions is misspelled.

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  6. Okay, corrected that one. I use Windows Live Writer and sometimes it doesn't catch misspelled words. I'll have to start double-checking. Thanks!

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  7. Hey, Sheila! Praise the Lord for the interruptions. You don't want to visit lonely again! By the way, I tried to sign up for emails but it wouldn't let me. Part of your sign up with FeedBurner is not complete. It said, "The feed does not have subscriptions by email enabled." Thought you might want to know!

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  8. That's right, Lynn. Wouldn't want to revisit lonely. I'll check on the feed. Thanks!

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Thanks for sitting a spell and chatting!