Friday, December 2, 2011

Random Thoughts: Fearing Success

 

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I’ve been working on getting Thundersnow ready for publication. Trepidation is dogging my footsteps.

I’ve beaten my fears back to a certain extent by focusing on God (and with a little help from my friends). It has nothing to do with me. Success or failure. It is all about pleasing God.

I fear success almost as much as failure. Why, you may ask? Several reasons.

One is because if I’m successful with the first book, people will expect me to duplicate that success. I may have only one book in me. On that point, we’ll just have to wait and see.

The second reason is because success may jar me out of the world I live in at this moment. Things may change. A disruption in the status quo. Do I want that?

The odds for success are against me. I don’t remember the average number of books sold per author, but I remember it’s not high. And, the definition of success varies. What if I sold 1000 books? Would I consider that successful? Yes. That would be awesome.

If I sold 10,000? That would be scary.

It reminds me of this quote by Marianne Williamson:

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.

Wait. Did she say shine? And the name of this blog is Rise, Write, Shine? Hmmm . . .

I am a child of God. On this earth to serve God. Not to worry about success or failure. It’s not about me. It’s about God and laying down my life for him.

Even if it kicks me out of my comfort zone. Or especially if it kicks me out of my comfort zone.

Whew. Okay . . . Talked myself out of the fear of success, even if I feel it is a bit farfetched. Now, how about failure . . .

 

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7 comments:

  1. Good word, Sheila. God has been speaking to me the very line, "It's not about me" everything we do and be and are should be about HIM, and Him alone.....there is something so much bigger than what we do or who we are in the natural that God wants to work in our lives. Keep on shining...you are radiant for the Lord!!

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  2. Thanks, sweet Sue. Yes, it's all about Him. Thanks for stopping by!

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  3. I so hear you on this, Sheila. I think success scares me more than failure too, for the reason that success brings more responsibility, more to do. Succeeding financially, for instance, might mean I no longer get to use the quick and easy tax forms and that I'll have to pay more taxes. ;) Succeeding as a self-employed person means responsibility for dealing with all those financial issues falls on my shoulders rather than a boss's.

    Still, if it's what God wants me to do, then I need to go ahead and do it, right? I need to let my light shine too, regardless of what might be involved in keeping the wick trimmed and the oil supplied...

    Thanks for the transparency, my sister. It's a blessing to know I'm not alone in those thoughts.

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  4. That's so true, Traci. We have to keep up with all our expenses, the books we sold, etc., etc. (since I'm self publishing). But if others can do it, I reckon I can to.

    Thanks for stopping by!

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  5. Your cover turned out great, Sheila! And, I do understand your feelings about success and failure. We all feat the unknown and what it will do to our comfort levels, but as you stated, trusting in Him will allow us to shine.

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  6. Great points...and funny, I more or less came to a similar conclusion this past week. I've come back to the realization that all we can do is try out best and let God take care of the rest. I hope things go great for your book!

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  7. Thanks, Marie and MGalloway! Appreciate so much your encouraging words!

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Thanks for sitting a spell and chatting!